Wednesday, March 28, 2012

My Rollercoaster

Life is has been crazy busy lately, and will only be getting busier. I haven't really had any news or any thing to say lately. I probable say this on my blog all the time, but it's true. I guess today the Lord just put something on my heart I thought that I ought to share.

I've not really had too much of importance going on in my life. I have been playing with my new pup, Sage, and Junior. I feel bad that they have to sit at home all day then we have stuff going on after work and it would be pointless if I never spent time with the dogs... why would I have them then??
So, Saturday we got home and since it was so nice we hung out outside. Bobby and I threw the baseball around and then I started pulling weeds in the yard. I turn the water hose on and get the ground soft so the weeds are easier to pull. The water is running and I'm moving it from one spot to another just working away. Well, Sage happens to love water. I look over and she is stopping in the puddle and biting at the water coming out of the hose. So, now she's got my attention and I keep watching her, Bobby and I get a big kick out of it and are laughing... A few minutes later, she has got the end of the hose in her mouth and is carrying it around. Funniest thing. We definitely miss our little Acey, but Sage has been such a sweet addition to our family. God definitely had her picked out for us. Also, She loves her brother. (And I think he likes her, too, even though he'd never admit it).
There's the update on that.

I love seeing God actively working in Bobby and my life. It's very apparent that Satan is hard at work trying to tear up the great stuff God is building. I by no means think that I've got it together (I don't), but it seems like when things start going right, here comes something else. It never fails. I was thinking back last night on how when we have something under control or peace about something, then here comes a swing from the other side. As I look back, it has been that way for a while (just recently it's been more frequent).
Bobby and I had a lot on our mind this past week. We talked and talked about it and then finally we let go of it and gave it completely to God and he pulled through like the amazing and wonderful Father he is! It was such an answer to our prayers! God is good! Then comes another blow.

With all of this roller coaster riding I've done here lately, the climbs are not near as long and the falls are not near as scary. The thing that I take away from all these things thrown in my face is what is most important, not what actually happened. I tend to focus on myself and how I was hurt or how I feel, when it's not about me. It's about how God is going to use me. Through all this I want to learn how to focus on the lesson rather then justifying my wrong actions. I can only be in control and change own actions. So, that is what I plan to do. I will not let the enemy win. He has already been defeated.

I've been reading The Help (it's been like since January when I started... I guess I'm a slow reader) and as I was reading it last night I had an epiphany. When you read this book it's you think this is about the MLK Jr. movement and rights of the blacks then and how life was in the 1960's. You get caught up in the romance and the drama and the agony of all the events, but there is more in the then you think. I don't know that it is relevant to everyone, but I'm at the part where Skeeter is an out cast and feels so empty (sorry if you have not read this or seen the movie). She got her heart broken, all her friends have abandoned her and her mother is really sick. Even though it is for only one of these reasons, but why has all her friends left her alone?? She stood up for the truth and whats right. Even though she knew what the consequences might be, she took the truths side. It was like, "Light Bulb!" No matter what the circumstances are, I want to stand up for what is correct, the truth.

In all of my rambling, I hope that this is what reigns through. That I live my life according to God's plan and purpose for my life. That I stop listening to the devils lies and keep seeking my Abba's face. I can't change Hilly's mind and make her see that she is ignorant to that truth, all I can do is continue to only believe the truth in my life.

We're starting our next bible study (We're done with James, so if anyone wants to borrow the videos they can) tonight which is Esther. I'm so excited. I love how James was bold and down to the point. You definitely have to wear your steel toed boots around him, cause he will step on your toes. But without even opening the lesson yet, I know that God is going to do great things. The title of the lesson is Esther: It's Tough Being a Woman. All I have to say is AMEN, sister!!! I know boys just don't get it!

Sorry to ramble on. I know that this post was more for growth and moving on for me, then anything else.

Have a blessed day!!

1 comment:

  1. Lovely post Mandie. Thank you for your insights.